I have been staying at home for half a month.Ｉam going to leave for xi’an in three days. I didn’t memorize the text these days.Because I don’t wanna make my mom get angry with me.Being single for me had embarrassed her enough at twenty-eight. Learning English for me is nothing but wasting time .Every time when I see her makes me suspect myself and everything I do.moral dilemmas? I don’t just want to be a cynic or a dreamer. I know deeply inside who I really want to be and where I want to go.Only time will tell.I regretted many things I did before ,I couldn’t deny or change anything but to admit and face the music. There is not too much time left for me now.Persistence? is the only way to the process of success .This is not a “cliche”.My sister had quit her job as a substitute teacher before I got home.She is going to xi’an to find a job with me .Yesterday one of the elders at our village passed away,my sister was busying doing something for the family.My mom is not willing to agree my sister’s decision.She always complains about everything we are suffering in our family.We understand her but we have no choices.