難道我們必須經(jīng)歷爛醉，才能懂得清醒嗎？難道你必須經(jīng)歷仇恨，才能懂得慈悲嗎？難道你必須經(jīng)歷戰(zhàn)爭，毀掉自己與他人，才能懂得和平嗎？當(dāng)然，這是完全錯(cuò)誤的思維方式，是不是？
首先，你想當(dāng)然地認(rèn)為，進(jìn)化、成長、從壞變好都是必經(jīng)的過程，然后你的思維便陷入了這個(gè)模式中。當(dāng)然，的確存在物質(zhì)性成長，比如小樹苗長成參天大樹；的確存在技術(shù)性進(jìn)步，比如經(jīng)過許多世紀(jì)的發(fā)展，車輪進(jìn)化成飛機(jī)。那么，是否存在精神的成長與進(jìn)化呢？這就是此刻我們探討的主題——“自我”是否能成長、進(jìn)化，始于“惡”而止于“善”？惡的核心——“自我”，能不能經(jīng)過進(jìn)化，經(jīng)歷時(shí)間，變得更高尚、善良？顯然不能。一切“惡”，都源于內(nèi)心的“自我”，而且始終是丑惡的，只是我們不想面對而已。我們認(rèn)為，經(jīng)歷時(shí)間過程，經(jīng)過成長與變化，“自我”將最終悟歸真實(shí)。我們的希望與期待是，經(jīng)過時(shí)間的洗禮，“自我”會(huì)變得完美。
那么，這個(gè)“自我”究竟是什么？所謂“自我”，是名，是相，是一堆記憶、希望、挫折、期待、痛苦、傷悲、瞬息即逝的歡樂。我期待這個(gè)“自我”能持續(xù)成長，達(dá)至完美，所以我們宣稱，超越了這個(gè)“小我”，就有一個(gè)“超我”或“大我”，那是一個(gè)靈性體，是超越時(shí)間的永恒。但“大我”是我們思量出來的，所以這個(gè)“靈性體”仍局限于時(shí)間的領(lǐng)域。細(xì)想一下就明白，顯然“大我”還在推理的范疇。
——克里希那穆提《生命書：365觀心日課》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）
Human Evolution
Must we know drunkenness to know sobriety? Must you go through hate in order to know what it is to be compassionate? Must you go through wars, destroying yourself and others, to know what peace is? Surely, this is an utterly false way of thinking, is it not?
First you assume that there is evolution, growth, a moving from bad to good, and then you fit your thinking into that pattern. Obviously, there is physical growth, the little plant becoming the big tree; there is technological progress, the wheel evolving through centuries into the jet plane. But is there psychological progress, evolution? That is what we are discussing—whether there is a growth, an evolution of the “me,” beginning with evil and ending up in good. Through a process of evolution, through time, can the “me,” which is the center of evil, ever become noble, good? Obviously not. That which is evil, the psychological “me,” will always remain evil. But we do not want to face that. We think that through the process of time, through growth and change, the “I” will ultimately become reality. This is our hope, that is our longing—that the “I” will be made perfect through time.
What is this “I,” this “me”? It is a name, a form, a bundle of memories, hopes, frustrations, longings, pains, sorrows, passing joys. We want this “me” to continue and become perfect, and so we say that beyond the “me” there is a “super-me,” a higher self, a spiritual entity which is timeless, but since we have thought of it, that “spiritual” entity is still within the field of time, is it not? If we can think about it, it is obviously within the field of our reasoning.
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