I just want to encourage myself to write something everyday.Maybe gradually I can express all my feelings easily in this upmarket language, which I don't know whether I'm familiar with or not.

Recently I cannot sleep very well. In other words, I just cannot control my emotional turmoil. It seems ?like things that I worried all the time have no matter to me, but I cannot stop thinking about them. I act like I can decide all, but indeed I cannot even control myself.

Such a joke.

Gotta to escape from this ?ridiculous situation.

Actually I ? have made this promise to myself long time ago. But I don't really keep this promise well. I still cannot ignore the insignificant thing. Moreover, I didn't focus on myself as well. I don't think I become that lonely now so that I need to expect somebody whom I really didn't like before to chat with me and prove that I'm still attactive.

I am attactive.

However, it is really the most silly way to prove it.

It shouldn't be like this.

I will not be like this any more.

Yeah, this will be the last time I say this.