To be honest, i don't know what should i do in the future. So, it's impossible for me to plan something and do it effectively in a long time. After i get into the fucking college, i have been trying many things, such as sociology, community activities, exercise in a germ, etc. However, for a while, i couldn't?feel enough reason to do these. i suck on whether to do these fucking issue. In other worlds, i don't have my goal.

For my future, i need to be more patient, calmer, diligent in a clearly sight. ?i have to get out of my comfortable place and see more people, eat more variety food, have more experience.

This is what i should do in the first year of 20-30.