旅程結(jié)束時，Wallace對David說：

Tour is over.

I'm gonna have to kinda feel all of this now, instead of just sleepwalk through it.

有多少人能細細品味回憶？

還是猶如夢游般度過了這一生，一覺醒來，夢境消失，只剩下空白。

我不愿意這么重復單調(diào)地度過一生。不論任何時候，請給自我一點時間，思考、回憶、品味，然后move on，reback real life。

Wallace深夜對David說：

-You awake?

-yeah.

-I was just thinking, um, it wasn’t a chemical imbalance, and it wasn’t drugs and alcohol, it was much more that I had lived an incredibly American life. This idea that if I could just achieve X and Y and Z, that everything would be okay.

There’s a thing in the book about how when somebody leaps from a burning skyscraper, it’s not that they’re not afraid of falling anymore. It’s that the alternative is so awful. And so then you’re invited to consider what could be so awful that leaping to your death would seem like an escape from it.

I don’t know if you have any experience with this kind of thing, but it’s worse than any kind of physical injury. It may be in the old days what was known as a spiritual crisis, feeling as though every axiom in your life turned out to be false, and there was actually nothing, and you were nothing.

And that it’s all a delusion and you’re so much better than everybody, cause you can see how this is just a delusion. And you’re so much worse because you can’t fucking function, it’s really horrible.

I don’t think that we ever change.

I’m sure that I still have those same parts of me. Guess i’m trying really hard to find a way not to let them drive, you know.

Hey, um, okay, good night.

這段話我并不是非常明白，但聽完這段話，印象很深刻，只知道我想記下來，留著以后回味。

這像是在尋找自我，解脫自我的一個過程。當人們從燃燒的大廈跳下來的時候，并不是因為他們不再害怕掉下樓，而是因為另一個選擇更加讓他們恐懼，然后你會想，是什么選擇讓他們覺得死亡反而是解脫？

我沒有這樣類似的經(jīng)歷，但是我能理解那種感受。

現(xiàn)代世界中，各種侵蝕內(nèi)心的誘惑不停在周圍盤旋，稍不小心便深陷其中。如何在這花花世界中，保持清醒的自我，是一件多么不容易的成就。世俗如我，總是被各種世俗煩惱侵蝕著，總是想要追求世俗眼中的成功。而當真正擁有名聲后，那真的是你想要的嗎？這是你快樂的源泉嗎？

我不肯定，我很懷疑。

愿我不再在意世俗的煩惱，愿我可以多多關(guān)注自我的發(fā)展。

愿我可以有機會走遍那些正在消失的世界。

愿我平靜、安心、用心。