5月6日考完雅思，感覺一陣輕松。
回顧一下5月3日頭馬會議中我做的第一次備稿演講吧。
前一天還沒準(zhǔn)備好演講稿
CC1主要是介紹自己，目的是讓俱樂部的會員們更了解你。五一假期我利用早上的時(shí)間打算準(zhǔn)備一下，可是想做的事情太多，早上也就花一個(gè)小時(shí)寫，寫了又刪掉，幾番下來到了5月2日上班那天，我的稿子還沒有著落。
2號下午快下班時(shí)，我終于想，不行就推遲到下一周吧，畢竟4號雅思口試，6號雅思筆試，干嗎給自己這么大壓力。找到俱樂部的VPE同學(xué)問有沒有back up speaker ，她回復(fù)沒有，問我怎么了。我說稿子還沒寫完，才寫了一半。她用自己一貫的樂觀精神鼓勵(lì)我可以的，讓我加油。好吧，看來只能硬著頭皮上了。
晚上有客戶的教練輔導(dǎo)課，結(jié)束時(shí)已經(jīng)九點(diǎn)半。我把演講題目發(fā)給了toastermaster Peter，結(jié)合他當(dāng)天的主題value，我的題目就叫做My core values！稿子還沒出來，有點(diǎn)焦慮，但是腦子已經(jīng)不轉(zhuǎn)，就還是按照平常的安排，陪寶寶，睡覺，一切明天再說！
瘋狂準(zhǔn)備
六點(diǎn)起來準(zhǔn)備，寫了一個(gè)半小時(shí)，有點(diǎn)眉目了。上午在單位抽了一個(gè)小時(shí)繼續(xù)寫，午飯后覺得內(nèi)容有點(diǎn)亂，用電腦邊謄寫邊修改梳理，又花了一個(gè)多小時(shí)。下午除了完成緊急工作，其余時(shí)間都在rehearsal 我的演講稿。
如果有更多時(shí)間，一定請群里大神們幫我修改潤色一下，無奈時(shí)間太趕，我只好跟著自己的感覺走了。
公交車上我還在rehearsal。旁邊的人肯定覺得這個(gè)人嘴里叨叨叨，是不是有什么毛病，我也顧不得自己的形象了。
我有每天記手帳的習(xí)慣，事后統(tǒng)計(jì)了一下，此次備稿演講準(zhǔn)備整體花費(fèi)約8.5小時(shí)。
上臺了
臨上臺還是很緊張。我提高自己的音量來控制場面，給自己更多底氣。
可惜開始沒幾句就忘詞了。貼心的會員伙伴遞過來的演講稿解救了我，繼續(xù)，后面越來越順暢了。時(shí)間把控也還不錯(cuò)，至少把準(zhǔn)備的內(nèi)容講完整了。
伴隨著大家的掌聲落座，心里一塊大石頭落地，無比輕松。
我的Evaluator 是俱樂部主席Maria，她給了我非常積極的反饋，我還幸運(yùn)地收到來自Dan, Fiona,Mark,May,Jason,Margret,Elise的紙條反饋（還有一位小伙伴沒有署名）。我把大家的反饋紙條整理粘貼到我的手帳本里面保存起來了。非常感謝大家。
最后的話
這次演講的經(jīng)歷帶給我最大的收獲是：
1、完成比完美重要
2、不逼自己一把，你永遠(yuǎn)不知道你的潛力有多大
附上演講稿，請大家提出建議，特別是語言表達(dá)的準(zhǔn)確和生動方面，謝謝！
Good evening ladies and gentlemen
Just as we’ve talked a lot today, core values are very important and helpful to dictate our behaviors and how our lives are to be lived.
Today I would like to tell you something about my core values to help you know me better.
The first of my core value is INTEGRITY.
I am a person who prefers to tell the truth and be honest to others.
Maybe the truth will hurt or embarrass others sometimes, I know, and then I would choose to keep silent rather than tell a lie.
I feel sick if I lied to someone or cheated someone. Even the game like wolf-killer is just not my jam.
I can refuse the game, but what if I have to tell a lie?
For example, I had to ask for a day off for an interview several days ago. Apparently, if I tell the truth to my boss, there is no need to bother even coming back to my office. I hesitated a lot and turned to my coach for help. She asked me, do you think the interview is the very thing you want to do? If yes, then go ahead and ask a day off. If not, just go back to your work.
Wow, good point! I finally persuaded myself to weave an acceptable excuse and call my boss at the last minute.
Phew! What a torturing experience.
The second core value of mine is SELF-IMPROVEMENT.
I do believe the path of self-improvement help me a better person. Through reading, taking courses, joining GC club meetings and all the other input ways, I can feel my improvement day by day. I feel quite satisfied and fulfilled indeed.
However, compared with input, output is actually more effective to get improved. For example, writing articles, delivering speeches like this.
But just before I stand on the stage, I felt nervous and scared. What if I couldn’t get the best award, what if I screwed up and everyone laughed at me? That’s too embarrassing. I wanted to quit and escape. I just need more time to prepare.
Suddenly a sound arose in my head.” Miya, why do you care so much about others’ evaluation and the best award? There are always people out there may be much more talented, or more diligent or more well-prepared than you. You are assuming that if you cannot win, then why bother continuing to play. How absurd? What about your willing to self-improvement? Think about it!”
The answer got clear. I forgot all those “other people” and “best awards”. Just jump on the bus, come to this building, stand here and share my stories with an open heart and no expectations but self-improvement.
CURIOSITY and COURAGE are also my core values.
I have an ambition to lead a creative living which is driven more strongly by curiosity than by fear.
For example, I heard of a vocation called life coach and some cases of how coaches help the clients improve their life conditions, family relationship, career performances and so on. I was very curious about how it could work, So I just found a coach and cooperate with her to figure it out. Then I feel it is a perfect job for me.
I took my curiosity and courage with me and started studying how to be a professional coach.
Thanks to my courage, now, I have my first client. And that’s amazing.
I hope I can try and find more about myself in the future, with my integrity, willing to self-improvement, curiosity and courage.
Thank you.
