I felt awful yesterday. Revising the report about creative ice cream drove me mad. F doesn't accept novelties loved by youth. And tiny mistakes emerged here and there. One month and a half had passed after I finished this report , it wasted me too much time.?

I could not accept that F doesn't care about me any more while he used to treat me as his daughter. This leads me frustrated and depressed. I want to talk with him, but have no chance. I presume that the only and last opportunity for me to express myself may be the last day working here when I resign. He'll regret. I treat him like father in my heart but he doesn't appreciate me. I feel pity for him. But there's no way to persuade me giving up then.

I interviewed the Beijing Public Security Bureau yesterday morning. A middle aged policewoman told me all about the Anti-Fraud APP. I've got what I need. The report will be short but exciting. I'm sure a lot of people will be interested in it.

I took a nap in the Motel next to the agency and then spent the whole afternoon there with low efficiency. I supposed to recite Lesson 6 of the New Concept English 3 and learn it by myself, but failed. There were too many issues in my mind that I was not able to focus on the passage. Not only the two reports, but the application should be scheduled as well. And I don't want to give up the TOFEL test in November. Still, there's Japanese class that I had missed twice. How could I manage these...

I know that I'm a little greedy. My energy is limited but my desire is not. There are too many things that I want to grab, so I get exhausted. But I really enjoy myself at the same time. I love my job and I love learning English and Japanese. I love Stone. I wish to spend more and more time playing with him. I love Donkey. I prefer talking with him about my worries and his progress to sleeping. But all these need time, I have only 24 hours as everyone else.? I cut my sleeping time to no more than 6 hours a day. I haven't got a sound sleep for 8 months and this status will continue until next Spring. I'm afraid that I would get sick if I kept sleeping so little for so long. But I have little time to care about my body. It's a dilemma, though I know perfectly well that health is the most important.

Fighting! Power through all difficulties till the end like the Olympic players!